Your average anime/manga junkie, I'm one sadistic and cynical bastard who will make your life hell(behind you anyway)if you get on the wrong side of me. grumpy and emo at times, i can be a real bitch but a pretty good friend(i suppose) and brother. meow.
i'm sure you guys have all heard of the phrase 'inner beauty' and that people claim that they go for inner beauty and not 'outer' beauty.that attitude and love and all that means more then 'outside beauty'.but if this is so true and that the world is so just and fair, then why does the phrase 'sex sells' come up all the time?and why is it so sadly TRUE?
if inner beauty is as desired as everyone claims, why are so many potential people who apply for jobs such as clothes models or air stewards or air stewardesses rejected kjust because they're not good looking enough, or they dont look 'perfect' enough?but many of you surely havent thought of this before.i dont blame you for not cuz its like, who cares? as long as you claim that inner beauty turns you on but in reality you get turned on by britney dancing around in her thong, who cares?the world is good right?
at this point you would be asking, wtf is wrong with this guy?some anti-sex guru or something who does not believe in the sexiness and hotness of Sarah Tan and Angelin Jolie?well..no.heck, i'm a guy.you cant stop me from admitting that Sarah Tan and Lindsay Lohan are hot.lol
what bothers me is that people dont really care about 'inner beauty' anymore.how the hell do i know?well..see...i'll put you in my shoes.you walk around in uni- looking like this
people look at you thinking, hey what a (if i may say) pleasant looking guy, hes got a very nice smile!maybe i should approach him and get to know him.or something.along those lines, you get what i mean.
but then they see this.
yea.you see right.its a skin problem i've got.suddenly the same person who wanted to get to know you backs off, thinking- omg wtf is that...dude his skin looks like scales!
how do i know this?simple.people have called me this names before.lizard skin.crocodile.just to name a few.now tell me.why would i, being a nice person and all, save some tempers here and there, deserve something like that?if there is inner beauty in this world, why do people not accept me for what i am inside but sneer or look at me like i'm some outcast?
i admit i am bless with several true friends who do not bother about my condition.you guys know who you are and i'm truly happy that i have you all.but its the constant stares, the jeering eyes from my peers in the lecture hall, on the street, in the gym, in shopping malls that really dampens my happiness and mood.i really cant help being like this you know.
i dunno.i just dont get it.this is the first time i've ever posted pics of my hand.will you judge me differently, those who read this?will you judge me for who i am inside or for the croc skin on my hand?
