Your average anime/manga junkie, I'm one sadistic and cynical bastard who will make your life hell(behind you anyway)if you get on the wrong side of me. grumpy and emo at times, i can be a real bitch but a pretty good friend(i suppose) and brother. meow.
This post is long overdue since we had the party on saturday, but i've finally managed to get my ass moving and posting my first entry post-exams.
Firsttly i have to congratulate Max and Eric again for beinging the ones pulling the strings behind the scenes. Its no easy feat organizing something like this and not getting as much appreciation and gratitude you deserve. So GREAT STUFF GUYS! the party wouldn't have been as successful without the two of you.
Max, you'll be happy to hear you weren't really the only one who felt out of place. I was rather lost too, before the movie cuz the engineering bunch ran off to do their Jason/Boon Earn thing and the others were playing Dai Dee which i have no inkling of how to play. If it was not for Jeff i would be walking around with the Milo can in my hand, or sittting at the bench facing the fish pond. But (yes i know i can't start with a But, so shoot me) i did feel the same way as in i was rather satisfied to be amidst all the laughing and shouting and giggling? i feel like i was a party of it all, the only sane one watching others go nuts( which is a change since i'm usually the one who goes nuts).
My hairclip/pins were a big hit at the party, something which i didn't expect. I also didn't expect everyone to be DRESSED in pink, but i didn't have anything pink and i know i really am not the kind of person who could pull off the pink thing so...yea. Pink hairclips.
And might i say i THINK i caught someone's eye that night? we kinda glanced at each other or something like that, which i quickly dismissed as "Nah it can't be it, not me at least" And no, i'm not gonna say anything else about it so quit bugging me.
And though i only heard about it (i did sense the frustration though, during the party), Kevin. I guess i could go as far as to say i understood his feelings the most, which, bear in mind does not mean is justified. I went through a similar situation once- going to my ex's birthday party, at which it was at her place and she had a boyfriend already, who, incidentally was ...WAS my best friend. I'm sure a couple of you have heard this story already. But yea, i behaved sorta like Kevin, all moody and making myself feel left out and all. However, two years give you a hell of alot of time to think about it, and now looking back i thought i was being rather childish. It wasn't worth it, going to a party and dampening the mood just for my own personal reasons. I was bitter, seeing her doing so well with her boyfriend and i was bitter that nobody sympathised with me. So i chose to reflect this bitterness out to everyone else, which, today, i know annoyed the hell out of everyone. I should have been thankful for being invited, to say the least, but i chose to make a total fool out of myself. everything bad that happens has a good side to it. And this breakup with my ex taught me to control my emotions( to some extent anyway) and to not dwell on the past, and just enjoy what i have at the present. There is no need to be selfish and to project all the problems you face to everyone else, especially during a happy occasion. Trust me, even today when i see that couple(my ex and best friend) i boil underneath, but i constantly remind myself that whats over is over, and i can't turn back the time. So why raise my blood pressure of something i cannot change? instead, go with the flow, and enjoy what friendship i have with them. ( everyone must be thinking this isn't yow keat typing, way too sensible and rational.)
Anyway. Thats my take on the subject. Threading on pretty dangerous waters here, so i'll just shut it.
pictures coming up next, in my next post.
and with that, Good lucky to all who are leaving to Australia. Love you guys, and take care- ask for a hug if you want one, i give pretty good ones =)
